Back to Work

I really should be going to bed right now, but I just finished off my fourth or fifth caffeinated drink of the day, so I'm a bit wired. I really need to get back off the caffeine since it messes up my bladder (TMI?), but after not being able to drink it while pregnant and then breastfeeding, I'm really loving being able to drink hot tea, Dr. Pepper and Diet Coke without the guilt that it might be affecting the baby. Not to mention that it's been a necessity with Hudson's sleep schedule of three hours at a time.

Well, today I returned to work! It was like the first day of school, except that I had to put on panty hose and heels (and after 10 weeks of house shoes and flip-flops, that was no easy task!) and I really like all my co-workers. Hudson stayed with his new babysitter for the first time. It was not easy leaving him...I thought I would be okay but I started crying as I had to turn around and leave him! Being away from him is not nearly as hard as the physical act of walking away from him.

I did okay once I got in the car and drove to work, but then the babysitter called at 10 a.m. and said Hudson wouldn't go to sleep! (He was really tired and usually takes a long nap in the morning.) It turns out she was just wanting to know if there was anything she could do to help him go to sleep. Besides having his momma pat his little bottom and rock him to sleep? That was really hard, and I got a bit upset again, but then she called back less than 10 minutes later and said he had fallen asleep. What a relief! At 3 p.m. my phone rang again and I saw it was the babysitter and I thought, "Oh No! What's wrong now?," but it turns out that he had fallen asleep at 1 p.m. and it was time for his 3 o'clock feeding and she wanted to know if I wanted her to wake him up to feed him or if she should just let him sleep. If she wanted to let him sleep that was just fine with me, so I think she did. So, I think his first day at the sitter went rather well, and I'm sure each day will get a little easier.

I'm so thankful that my employer is supporting my part-time schedule. I just cannot imagine getting home at 6 p.m. and having to immediately worry about dinner and start getting ready for the work day. I feel like my part-time schedule is allowing me the best of both worlds of having a "career" and being a mom.